The Drivers

Friends and family always ask me, “How is it being a new mommy?”  My first gut reaction is to say, “It’s great!” but if I think about it for more than a second, I get incredibly emotional and I well up inside just thinking about it (maybe it’s the ocytocin running inside).  My life has forever changed.  It’s more than great, it’s amazing and incredible. I think about what an amazing creature my husband and I have made.  It’s incredible how much you can love your child.  Every time I look down at my son when I am nursing him, I study every part of his body…his eyebrows, lips, cheeks, fingers, toes, and hands…  You wish so much for your child.  You hope that he grows up to be a strong, smart, healthy man.  I’ve been around children which seems like almost all my life, but nothing can prepare you on becoming a mommy.  Bringing Miles home from the hospital was so exciting.  We couldn’t wait to show him to his new room with all his clothes, toys, bed, and tons of presents waiting for him to open.  Waking up almost every two hours to feed Miles was a challenging experience.  We’ve never experienced such sleep deprivation.  For example, we would wake up to feed Miles at 2am.  We’d finish feeding him about a half hour later.  Then, we’d burp and change his diaper, which would take another half hour.  We would put Miles back down to sleep, and the process would start all over again in an hour.  As tiring and exhausting this process is, when you look at your child, you are filled with so much love, and you realize, this is all worth it.  You can’t wait to do it all over again the next day.  Everyday Miles is developing and learning new things.  It’s the littlest things that makes us so excited…AHHH, today, Miles learned how to sit up!  You quickly call the grandparents to tell them the great news.   

What’s so fun and precious is to see my husband play with our son.  There is something about a father and his son.  I can just see in Jason’s eyes that he cannot wait until Miles gets to be at at age where he can take Miles fishing and camping, and to show him how to play the guitar.  As a mother, you hope that your son grows up to be just as handsome as his father =)  Having Miles has been a huge adjustment.  I think what we miss most is being spontaneous, jumping up and going any where at any time.  Anybody who knows me well, knows that I am a little bit like a gypsy.  With Miles, we have to plan everything.  How long are we going to be out for?  Is Miles dressed appropriately?  Did we pack extra diapers?  Did we get his pacifier?  How about his bottles…But once we are out the door with Miles, we can’t wait to show him to friends and family.  When grocery clerks come up to chat with Miles, you can’t help but want to show him off!

Being a parent is a rewarding experience.  As hectic and busy as it is to have one baby, we can’t wait to give Miles a baby sister or brother.